Chip in

When I was in Uni, photography had taken more than half of my life. The way I perceived it was very clear, I wanted photography to be part of my future. Passion comes with a price, just like every hobbies the world will know. The desire to buy new lenses, accessories, memory cards, bags, straps, and countless things under 'tech' section on web store, it knocked my door everyday.

I needed to distinguish which one I really need and which ones were only just happy pills. Then, I came into realization that I might need a new lens. And just like every other Uni students I knew, I started saving up, with THE goal in mind. I set my mind to it, and placed a deadline to it. I wanted to make the purchase at one of the annual photography expo, because I knew I could get good price there.

Then came the day of the expo. It was cheaper than I expected, but checked back to my savings, there's no way I could do that at that time. Burdened by the desire, I went to my dad and asked, "please chip in, I need only xx amount to make it." He did, and I made the purchase. I was happy, actually very happy.

How I went on with that, "I bought this myself saving up, yes my dad chipped in." Like it was the smallest thing someone's ever done to me. It struck me recently, how I responded to it and it left me ashamed. Really ashamed of myself.

It all comes down to how we value things. How we couldn't value small gifts/victories comes from our self-realization that we already own our game, ONLY need small things to perfect it. It doesn't only undermines people, but also God. We often try to understand Him however we like it. We ask him from our position that we already have something, and only need God to chip in. Then we would go on, "I did this on my own, yes God chipped in."

We will value what we are grateful for. We are not wired to value nothingness, it doesn't add up. Our value system were built on what we have, and if something adds up, then come in, if it subtracts, then go away.

We were confident in our strength, and when waves hit or lacks crept in, we started looking for solutions. We went to God. Then we started asking, "God please, I only need these amount, nothing more, I don't ask much".  It's not much, so we took it for granted. We undermined God to our standard, while He's all powerful and all knowing.

Ephesians 2:7‭-‬10 MSG

Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. It’s God’s gift from start to finish! We don’t play the major role. If we did, we’d probably go around bragging that we’d done the whole thing! No, we neither make nor save ourselves. God does both the making and saving. He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing.

Dwell in His embrace. Celebrate small victories. Let Him be in the driver's seat, and enjoy the ride of gratitude like never before.