It is almost midnight here in
Kew, the suburban area of Melbourne, Australia. As I am typing this, I am
thinking about going home, which is going to happen very soon. At the same
time, the feeling of leaving Melbourne haunts me all the time. The closer I am
getting to departure, the more clouds are coming my way, promising rain as I am
pretty sure they will leave eventually.
I can start recollecting now,
from the first day until now, and I can predict quite accurately what is going
to happen on the last day. I came here on August last year, which was the start
of spring, and right now is winter. The changing of the seasons, the things
they brought and they left, and how people adjust their life based on the
current season.
The spring comes with the hope,
as the flowers and trees spring, and leaves in beautiful fashion. The summer
comes with excitement, trying to exceed the one spring left. Is summer even
capable of doing that? Before we can even think about the answer to that, the
fall comes along with thundering answer we didn’t even think of. Then, the
winter does. We are deeply fucked.
I start to think, with the
uncertainty Melbourne weather has to offer, how people still be able to
compensate the storm after sunshine all day, and the other way around? It is
not predictable in any way, yet nobody complains about that. Amazing, isn’t it?
We never know what the future
holds, will it be rainy tomorrow? Should I bring my sunnies or umbrella? I am
not going to bring both, how insecure am I that people would know my inside
without me letting them in. Also I don’t want to be weighed down with something
I wouldn’t use. Wait, what time is it? Fuck, I’m late.
Well, am I good? Am I bad? Am I
in the good side of bad or bad side of good? We keep asking without even knowing
the answer. Well, I am good, no doubt about that. Am I really? Well, I’m going
to bring my sunnies out. Oh, will it rain today?
It is the uncertainty keeps us
alive, keeps us who we are. It is the Melbourne in us.
Bittersweet is us.
Kew, Victoria
Twenty-eighth of July 2017.
11.23PM
